Remeber Two Weeks Ago When You Cried Like A Baby? Inner monologue by Ms.Wells

This was my face every time I got a nice e-mail from a colleague  or student saying

"I will miss you next year Miss Wells"

Let the inner monologue begin

"I'm fine, you are not going to cry Lauren..."

"...it was just a lovely message from a friend or student,

making you realize..."

"...how much you under-appreciated people..."

"No-no! Stop it Lauren! That is not helping!

If I just smile once more everything sad will wash away and I will feel juuuuusssst right..."

...nailed it.

The crying that is.

I lost it (like seen above)

more than once a day.

Pathetic?

Perhaps.

How many times did I lose it?

I can't remember exactly....

it was all a BLURRRR of tears.

"Lauren, you are a red-hot-mess. Pull yourself together woman!"

(this was me TRYING to pull myself together)

It lasted for a whole 30 seconds before 

I went back to crying like a baby.

(as shown below)

And the truth? 

I didn't care because I kept thinking...

"It's my party and I'll cry if I want to so 

BACK OFF sensible Lauren and let the Emotional Lauren 

cry-it-out!" 

So...yeah.

That's how I ended my three years in Dhaka.

Crying like the biggest baby I know.

Word.